This summer I have a huge decision to make. In short it is this: leave York or stay in York.
Do I leave the comfort of the North and try to make my way in the big city of London, or do I stay where I am and keep saving money in hopes that one day I may build up the courage to leave.
The answer is simple really, I mean I have to go. What's keeping me here? Apart from a job and a girlfriend, nothing. The job I have is only casual part-time, easy but hardly a career. And I love my girlfriend, but I'm not at a stage where I'm willing to let life-changing decisions be decided by love.
I can move to the big city, fall onto a West End stage, earn enough to support myself while still managing to visit York on alternate weekends. Get myself a nice flat, overlooking Hyde Park, go to drama school, make a name for myself.. well if I can't dream what can I do?
I can stay in York. Find a cheap house share, maybe a flat, work as much as I can, act as much as I can, save money and move to London the year after? Or maybe the year after that. Or if I'm starting to save a lot, why not stay one more year and increase my safety net. And then I'm 30 and still working behind a bar for a casual part-time wage while saving small amounts of money which I'm slowly spending on drink as I begin to realise that I'll never bloody leave..
A sad state of affairs, I'm sure you'll agree. I mean obviously I doubt that would actually happen. If I did stay in York for another year, it would be only one more year. 5 years in one place would fit my current record.. although I have to wonder what will happen when I'm moving countries every few days.
So. Anyone moving to London this summer? Because I'd quite like to not go down alone..
Do I leave the comfort of the North and try to make my way in the big city of London, or do I stay where I am and keep saving money in hopes that one day I may build up the courage to leave.
The answer is simple really, I mean I have to go. What's keeping me here? Apart from a job and a girlfriend, nothing. The job I have is only casual part-time, easy but hardly a career. And I love my girlfriend, but I'm not at a stage where I'm willing to let life-changing decisions be decided by love.
I can move to the big city, fall onto a West End stage, earn enough to support myself while still managing to visit York on alternate weekends. Get myself a nice flat, overlooking Hyde Park, go to drama school, make a name for myself.. well if I can't dream what can I do?
I can stay in York. Find a cheap house share, maybe a flat, work as much as I can, act as much as I can, save money and move to London the year after? Or maybe the year after that. Or if I'm starting to save a lot, why not stay one more year and increase my safety net. And then I'm 30 and still working behind a bar for a casual part-time wage while saving small amounts of money which I'm slowly spending on drink as I begin to realise that I'll never bloody leave..
A sad state of affairs, I'm sure you'll agree. I mean obviously I doubt that would actually happen. If I did stay in York for another year, it would be only one more year. 5 years in one place would fit my current record.. although I have to wonder what will happen when I'm moving countries every few days.
So. Anyone moving to London this summer? Because I'd quite like to not go down alone..
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